live it up

lately i've been keeping occupied with a few selected of close friends on the weekends. these four guys will not let me stay in to be lonely at all. i'm very surprised their girlfriends don't even trip. it feels like we're on a party bus and we can't get off of it. from road trips to late night random wildness.. these guys make me feel like i'm 21 again. they never judge me or look down on me. i think it's safe to call them my best friends, the funtastic four!

and to this conclusion, these past couple of weeks made me realize the big question. why do i care about other people that don't really care for me? you know friends come and go in your life in a blink of an eye but real friends have always stayed no matter what. i think the biggest mistake i've made in my life is letting some people stay in my life far longer than they deserve. but then again i also believe that there's no limit to how long you can care for friends and no limit on how much. especially when they have been such a huge part of your life for such a long time. hmmm, what a weird dilemma. this case needs to be solved asap.

i'm trying to live it up. it's summer.. i'm caught up on work, finished my project, my collaboration design with my local meet up team is looking good. the LMENT annual boat party is coming up, last minute trip to austin this weekend and better yet, i finally got my EDC tickets.. it's officially confirmed! i'm going to EDC. i never thought EDC would be at fair park. it hasn't hit me yet but it will when i arrive at the front gates or maybe even when kaskade gets on.


5 weeks can't come any faster.
even though i'm still a little crushed from the past month nothing should hold me down right now. i know told myself this many times but why can't i accept it? i'm just really glad we're still good friends though. i'd rather have her in my life as a friend then not at all. i care about her too much that i'm willing to accept it as it is. i was at the bar thursday night and one of my friends introduced me to a girl i've seen before but never met. shes very attractive and very nice. we exchanged numbers and had a fun time at the bar. my minds been telling me to call her but my heart says no. i guess the heart knows what the heart needs. slowly but surely accepting it.. need to let go. i just need a little more time.

here are some more quotes that i found in my new quotes book for some inspiration.. and maybe even some to live by.

"the future lies before you, like paths of pure white snow. be careful how you tread it, for every step will show."

"sometimes you need to run away just to see who will come after you."

"you've got to follow your passion. you've got to figure out what it is you love--who you really are. and have the courage to do that. i believe that the only courage anybody ever needs is the courage to follow your own dreams."

"people will forget what you said. people will forget what you did. but people will never forget how you made them feel."

looking foward to tubing in austin this weekend. never tried it.. i hope i can get a tan before the boat party. good times ahead, cheers and live it up.